Just The Start: November 2011

How did I get here?
Why am I still here?
And more importantly, where do I go from here???

My whole life I swore up, down, left, right, forward, backward, North, South, East, and West that I would NEVER go to college. I did everything in my power to not be here.
I had a plan.
I started MATC in high school so I could get a jump start on my education. After high school I started working at the hospital along side with my family with the plan to take night classes just like my uncle and some day work my way up to the Operating Room cutting open people brains and fixing them.
I remember the panic I felt when I realized that I hated what I was doing at the hospital. It killed me to face the fact that I didn't want to work at the hospital. Nearly killed my family too.
I began to apply for the local Utah Clinics thinking I could continue with my plans but only in a different setting. Weeks, even months went by and I didn't get a single call back for any of the jobs I applied for. And every Sunday my uncle would remind me that I still had a place back at the hospital. But I didn't want to be there anymore. I tried that path. And I hated it.
It was hard to realize my dreams weren't coming true and I fell into a dark place. I hid from the world, family, and friends. How could I admit to them that I had failed?
And then there was Kaylee. She kicked me out of bed and we began to train for a half marathon together. After that I just couldn't stop. Ragnar, a Marathon and a few 5k's later I had a new dream. To be a personal trainer. That sounded pretty cool and something I would love to do for the rest of my life. Then I began to help my mom train and she lost a lot of weight (I would say how much but she would probably shoot me first). And then my new dream seemed to crystalize. But I wasn't ready to face it.
So I started working in Hell.....uh...I mean, Hobby Lobby. It was great for a while! I love the people I worked with and working in the frame shop was a blast. I mean, I got paid to just break glass some days! Hello?! Doesn't that sound perfect for me? Yup. But after a while I couldn't progress. And I started to fall back into the darkness that once had a huge hold of me. A quick trip to Hawai'i and I realized just how miserable I really was. Funny that Kaylee seems to be so involved in my life changing paths.... Anyway. I came home a quit. I applied for UVU and was accepted there the next day.
2 months later and I was attending college. I was scared out of my mind. This was against everything I once believed in. And I couldn't help but feel like running away some nights and maybe starting back over in Kindergarten. I wonder if Miss Hylton would let me in....Hmmmmmm
Now here I sit in front of my laptop. It's near the end of my first semester of college and I've already signed up for Spring classes. I move out in about 3 and a half weeks. The lowest score I've received on a test is 64% (but the highest in the class was 70%, so not bad, right?) and my average for a test is 94%. I have amazing new friends and made some awesome memories with them. My dreams are actually coming true and I feel like for once I've actually done something good with my life.
Crazy.
How did this happen? Because God likes to work magic and with every wrong step you take somehow you end up a little closer to the right path.
How did I get here? Honestly, I'm not sure. But I'm pretty certain it has something to do with my stubbornness.
Why am I still here? Oh man, somedays I wonder. But I'm good at this thing called college. I can keep progressing until I finally reach the top. And once I get to the top, I'll find a new ladder to climb.
Where do I go from here? I don't know. Maybe this time I'll leave it up to the Big Man. Maybe the next step wont take as long and might be a little less painful.

I love fall!!! It's the best time of the year! And what's the best part of the best time of the year? Oh yeah, jumping in leaves!!

The other day my friends and I were sitting in our Nutrition class when our teacher never showed up. Oh the heartache. But have no fear! Fallen leaves are here!!!! And you'll never believe this. Kari has NEVER jumped in a pile of leaves before! O_o Those crazy Arizonians..... So instead of sitting in class wondering what to do a few of us went outside to have a little fun. I mean, this is college after all! ;)